i just ask one thing..

please don’t waste my time. 

today, i stopped at kroger to pick up a few things, and since i had idk, less than 10 items, i went to the self checkout. and the self checkout things were full until this one lady on the phone left in a hurry. so i walked over to the counter and put my stuff down and scanned em, etc. then as i swiped the card and finished paying i noticed that there was money in the slot where you get cash back. and i picked up the money and there was $60, the money probably came from the lady on the phone who used the checkout before me. as i picked up the cash i was seriously contemplating on whether to take it or not. and random thoughts came up my mind like, paying for gas money and food, etc. but then i finally just gave it to the manager who’s able to give back the money by finding out which person left the cash and putting it back on her card. i thought of how i would think of myself whenever i used any of the $60 i took and realized, i couldnt do it without the feeling out guilt. so now, im still living the broke life. 

it feels like my heart is at one place, while my brain is in another. my arms and legs are somewhere else too. i cant feel anything, im numb. things have been rough today. my body’s here, but im not present in my body. seeing him and his family in so much pain has taken a toll on me. 

He prepares the called.”